You haven't. Otherwise you wouldn't be spending so much time looking to get high, drink, and get laid. This is self destructive behavior and it's from your catalog. So either you were lying then or you are now.

You're an adult. You want to circle the drain, you go right ahead. But don't ask women to join you or make it pander to your self destructive tendencies. It's not going to happen.

I never wanted a perfect or a 'great' life. I wanted one on my terms instrad of someone else's.

I have the life I wanted. I have the family I wanted. I have the freedom I wanted. I have the bonds I wanted. My life hums and sings. There's harmony and a real sense of completeness.

Something you clearly lack.

It's not a perfect life, it's not a 'great' life. In fact, it's a very small life. It's not a life for everyone, or one that most people would even want.

But I did.