Yeah, you're definitely getting in your own way.

Your potentials deserve yournhonesty and integrity, not your sole focus so early in the relationship development phase. That is respect. Focus on them when you're interacting with them conduct yourself forthrightly.

Other than that, there's nothing in the world wrong with continuing to look and meet new people. You need socialization regardless. You need to end this isolation.

You also need to stop feeling sorry for yourself.

If you only ever recognize progress when yoube gotten what you wanted, you'll never be happy, and no one can ever make you happy.

Enjoy and honor the journey. You can't see any more than a meter? That's nuts, but okay, whatever.

It's a meter. Depending on circumstances, incremental amounts like a meter is monumental. You're also fooling yourself if you think every further increment will be equally as time consuming or hard one. Life doesn't work like that. Try giving birth or whipping yourself into physical shape.