Religious people seem to be more afraid of death than anyone. You're never sure of that trade off. Did you accumulate enough points to cancel out your deductions?

I have exit plans. But they're not about hardship. I plan to fight as long as I'm able. That said, assuming I do make it through the natural disasters and survival events, manage to avoid all the people off their meds and going nuts and the ones who want what we have, and we can feed ourselves.... I'll be 52 next week. At some point I'm going to be in a state of decline as we all face. I'd rather check out on my own terms than die slowly of some long term condition. There's no guarantee the medical system will not also collapse or that avg people like us will be able to afford treatment for certain things. Hard choices are going to have to be made. I don't the burden of keeping me alive to reduce Urchling's chances of survival.

I feel like I'll be able to see it through and know the right time. Maybe that's hubris on my part, but if theres one thing I would sacrifice myself for, it's my daughter. No doubts.