Probably won't go down that way. You're filling your head with all sorts of bullshit that will hinder an robust and energetic sexual relationship. If you did get lucky enough to date a 'freak in the sheets', good chance she's not going to be able to tolerate you for long because you are going to badger her to death with your insecurity and fear of her cheating and not being loyal. Your red pill bullshit will kill her libido and joy in being with you dead.