No need to kid, more of us than you seem to think have done exactly that in an effort to understand you men. I certainly have. I don't know anyone my age cohort or younger who has never watched any sort of porn. Older people though, sure. I don't know if my daughter has but I suspect she just hasn't told me.
It's a male self centered delusion that women don't experience rejection. We experience it differently, of course. But the reality is, in some ways it's more profound and painful and in other ways, not.
Again, more of you men would know that if you'd ever cared to try to understand us.
I know this, because the men who have made that effort, DO know this basic basic shit.