My guy, I'm at work. Some of us have to work for living. We don't get to sit up all day bloviating our PERSONAL experience as though everyone has the same.

Do some reading. Try some Critical thinking out once in a while. See if you can't rub some of those brain cells that haven't been pickled together and get some friction going.

We both know that even if I did take time out of my evenings with my sweet Urchling and the Hell Hound, you wouldn't even look it over. You'd just dismiss real research because it doesn't line up with YOUR "expertise". You're that guy.

So do your own. Start with that Bible. A quick Google search will inform you that your previous comment on the Gospels is flat out wrong.

John is thr only one written by a direct eye witness to the events of Jesus' ministry and there's proof that it was heavily modified up through the 2nd century.

Jesus was deified after his death as an act of spreadinf worship. He never claimed divinity.