I'm very aware of the effect of being okay with myself has on my own confidence to be open. Some days I'm like a damn magnet, especially when I'm out with Jupiter and just happy.

We project our inner landscapes, you know. It's also one of the reasons I get so much street harassment, to be frank. Right? Cause how fucking dare I be happy and joyful in public when I'm too old and average to deserve it. How dare I have dog that's looking at me with complete and utter love and devotion. She must be spoiled, so I'm wasting what could be given to someone else (a man) on a dog. I get that blasted at me daily too.

Still, it takes two people to tango. Or it's not a tango, is it? Signals and cross signals. Reading them and responding.

Absolutely the moment of attraction was his unguarded moment of annoyance and the deja vu effect it gave me. Otherwise, he would have been just a guy. Just like any other guy you see out in public. That's why I spent the time laying out that parallel of being fatigued to the point of craving rest and unable to muster up any more patience for what would otherwise be petty annoyances.

But don't forget, it was his choice in how to respond to me laughing at him. His choice to find humor in himself and the situation. His choice to not be offended by it, to see it as an invitation and not an psychological attack or what have you.

And he invited first, with that recognition and that soet of eyeroll. Otherwise, I would have chalked it up as a rejection and not spoken to him.

Two to tango.

And notice how there was none of this, "which buttons do I press to get the sex to come out" bullshit out of him.

I feel fairly safe in speaking for most or all women when I say we miss men who know how to act like men instead of bratty teenagers.

This one's going to linger a good long while for me.

I betcha he's ticklish on his ribs. That's fun.

Anyway, thanks for reading and I'm glad you enjoyed it and were able to get wrapped up in the moment as it unfolded.

Hope you're keeping your eyes open out there and not letting these moments pass you by.