I'm not dismissing your experience. I think you have a peculiar and petulant interpretation to it.

Plus, your story keeps changing the more I challenge it.

First, no one has ever even looked at you. Then you can't get a date, you always get rejected. Then you reject the idea of getting sex from a sex worker because it woule be meaningless if there was no connection that had been developed over time. Then you have a date and very shortly thereafter have sex with this woman which validates your existence, even though whatever connection you developed couldn't have been very deep because it happenes over what, two dates? Then she rejects you for someone else and we're back to no one had ever fiven you the time of day. Then you're into BDSM lifestyle and therefore have special romantic needs but your focus does not seem in alignment with that lifestyle.

And now all of a sudden, a guy who can't get a wiman to look at him has two dates this weekend in that scene.

But everyone else who had offered encouragement and support is a liar who is stringing you along with no intention to prove their encouragement and support to your satisfaction.

Do you see where I'm going with this?

When it's all laid out, what does that rationally look like to you?