If it happened twice, at least at that moment, you were a placeholder.

Think about where your own head is at when you're in bed. If it were you making that Freudian slip, what would be the reason(s)?

Men aren't aliens from outer space. They're not from Mars. They're not that different from us.

If you choose to play it out and see where it goes....I'd be very careful of emotionally investing any further until I had those answers of I were you. My opinion, but it's your decision. I hope things go well for you here, April, whatever you decide.

One more thing, if I may. If it were me, I'd be asking and examining myself pretty strongly if I even could move forward fully and openly or if this incident would haunt my attempts to connect intimately moving forward.

Regardless of whether or not he wants to take a break, do you need to? That was painful. It's an injury that's probably gonna need more tending to than "sorry, let's move on". It doesn't matter if it was accidental or not. The injury is what it is and you're the only one who can say how severe or festering it might be, as the injured party.

You matter too. Don't forget that.

Urchling, Jupiter, and I send our best. ♥️🤍💛

Be well, April.