Huh?

I think you took that the wrong way. I do hope it works out for you both. I'm just saying if she hasn't noticed how down on yourself you are, she will eventually. It's not exactly news that you've got horribly negative self talk. Youve made that beyond clear in your writing. Sooner or later she'll start to figure how much that has played into your lack of sexual experience.

I hope she can help you past that so you can both find happiness.