Good points.

As a former student of population dynamics, this is good for us as a species. We do need to reduce our population. As soon as possible. We’re either going to do it on our own or nature will do it for us.

That said, like anyone else, I don’t want to be one to die of this. It’s fine when it’s just academics. But, I don’t particularly want to get this disease at all.

Then later, I find myself wishing I would get it so I could can just get it over with already since we’ve decided on this course of doing next to nothing. The time slowly passing is interminable at times while waiting ones turn to live or to die.

Then, I remind myself that statisticslly, most people don’t get that sick. However, now that we know that immunity doesn’t last, how does one fair the next time you get it, if you get it again before the extensive organ damage heals? Does your chance of dying or suffering other debilitating consequences increase? How significantly?

So watching it all happen is something else, I find. It’s easy when that cold calculus is theoretical and you don’t have to do the mental gymnastics around excusing who’s dying and who isn’t. This virus is not an equalizer. That undermines the theory somewhat, don’t you think? Especially when policy suddenly shifted from saving lives to save the economy as soon as the news started reporting the mortality statistics by race?

Then there’s that prickly little issue of how pandemics run amok like this one have a tendency to collapse stressed civilizations. Like ours. The fallout of that absolutely helps with bringing down the population. Of course, it usually comes with mind numbing levels of chaos and violence. And, you have to start over and build again from the rubble. Still, I might could get on board with that given the state of things right now around the world. I’d be lying if I said I hadn’t fantasized and dreamed about it some. I’m sure I’m not the only one sick to death of the entire planet being run into the ground and being mostly powerless to stop it. Only, I see no indication of evolution in our species enough to believe that whatever replacement arises will be any better. So what’s the point?

I’m impressed and a little envious you’ve been able to keep your headspace so blasé and detached. Mine feels more like a rat’s nest these days.