Don't feel bad when thinking about your children's deaths pitches you back into denial.
It's hard enough to accept our own deaths. But your kids? Leaving them abandoned in an increasingly violent world without you due to your untimely death?
That's a calculus that's just too hard for most. I go back and forth myself, between acceptance and denial. It's tough.
Don't forget basic foraging, building, and tool creation in your prep practice.