After reading through all the comments and your responses to them, it’s more likely your profile "got pushed down" because it seems all of life is one big pity party you’re throwing for yourself and you’re kinda talking crazy (I donyt mean that in a clinical sense) and unhinged. It’s likely you been muted a lot because people don’t want to deal with any more crazy. It’s not a good time. We’re all drowning in crazy and most folks have a limited capacity to deal illogical ramblings to nowhere.

Anyways, you sound deeply depressed (I do mean this one clinically) to me. Hope you get some help and get to feeling better so you can be more functional in the world.